It’s morning....mornings are really really tough! This morning I have a headache the size of our country. It’s so bad I might throw up. Every morning I take tramadol and clonazepam. This morning I added zomig to the cocktail. This is a pretty normal thing. I don’t have much time to write this morning. I am trying to get kids ready for school. I want to write more later on the protocol I use because I know it will help some people. I just wanted to document some things really quick. This is me while trying to sleep last night.
I was in so much pain I took everything in my arsenal so that I could fall asleep. My legs were in so much pain they felt like they were in a vice grip. I’m talking deep pain all the way to the middle of the bone. The muscles ached so deep that it felt like every nerve was screaming at me! I payed here and prayed and thanked God for my kids and my life. For the wonderful church I go to and eventually I fell fast asleep.
This is me on a bad day too. This is why people have a hard time believing that someone like me is in so much pain. Because I can dress up and look nice when I can drag myself to the bathroom. I remember this day my pain level was about a 6. It’s not just the pain though. It’s the derealization that really gets to me. It makes it hard to function, hard to drive, hard to do anything! I still have hope that I won’t be like this forever. Yesterday was a bad day but God’s mercies are new everyday. Today is a different day so I don’t have to live in the pain of yesterday. Three things I’m grateful for are 1) my kids aren’t fighting this morning 2)my legs don’t hurt nearly as bad as they did yesterday and 3) i have a God that understands what I’m going through.
I would really like to get this blog out there for people that have chronic pain. Not just Lyme disease. Anything from fibromyalgia to MS I am eventually going to write about things that help and routines I make with my 8 kids. I know it could help a lot of people just to know there is someone else out there that understands what you are going through.
Since my title is the good the bad and the ugly I wanted to post a picture of me on a good day.
I confess I don’t take the best selfies. However I want everyone to see that there is not much difference from the picture above. Sometimes you can see it in my eyes that I am not doing well. But if you do t know me well or not close to me I can fool a lot of people. Please please understand that there are people out there that are in chronic pain. You don’t know who they are or what they are going through. Be nice to everyone because it could change their day! I hope you all have a blessed day and I’m hoping to be able to write about my protocol later.